I feel like crap!!!!

Whey hey, I feel like crap.  Bipolar brain working overtime the past few days and boy does it make me exhausted, high, crap feelings, basically shite!

I am feeling so bad about my soul mates mother right now nothing can leave my mind.  Not him, nor his mother, nor the rest of the family.

Try imagine lying in bed at night with your mind going ten to the dozen and then multiply that by 100 - that is how I feel right now!

I can't do anything - I don't want to phone him because the situation is awkward.  I have text him and to be fair he has text back saying "he needs to concentrate on his mother" and I know that but it don't make me feel like not feeling shit.

I wish I could wave a magic wand and all this shit will disappear but it won't because I have no magic wand to wave :o(

I guess right now the best thing I can do is let him get on with it in his own way.  There is nothing else I can do - nothing.  That stinks especially, when like me, you are a "do-er".

Best thing for me tonight - bed!!!

Goodnight everyone and remember just how precious life actually is!